Cut my wrists and black my eyes...

THE STARTING LINE IS LIKE WHOA!!!

Mon, 06 Dec 2004 06:18:59 GMT

lol...well tonight i went to the starting line show...and whoa...lol....we got there at 11:00 in the morning and the show didnt start until 7:00 ...lol..devoted fans right? so while we were waiting i was being my werid self and i was talking to random people so...hmm there were these like 12 yr old skaters and i was hyper...hmm bad mix...so of course i was harrassing them and i named one billy...i was screaming to him "why dont you love me billy and i crossed the street to chase them...and they ran away:( ...lol... well we waited and waited and finally we were in, the front of course....first band that came up was Lux courageous....(cant spell) they were reallllyy goodd...check them outt...and they played really goodd..and me and my friends were obbsessed with the bassist...well i was at frist...whoa he dressed nice...lol...well...he had a yellow shirt on and we didnt know his name so were calling him "yellow shirt guy" lol...me and my friends at the end of there performance yelled hey yellow shirt...and he looked i screamed...your hott!!!!! lol...i think he heared me....lol...hopefully...well not like he doesnt hear it alott...lol...he was wow...lol...then the modern came on they were really good too and they were funnyy...lol...well the lead singer was...lol...and he sed something about the starting line and i screamed...kennys fucking sexyy!! and kenny was on the side of the stage he deff. heard b/c there was dead silence, exept for the singer....lol....the the starting line came on<3 lol...and they performed soooooooo incerdibale...i could take it , so i screamed KENNY I LOVE YOU!!! and he sed " I love you too" whoa thats sexyyy...lol....soo after they performed....which i was really happy with there song choses......the bouncer stepped on the barracades and crushed my finger and i think i sparianed/broke it....uggleee... that sucked but whats happend after the show was deff. worth it...we waited out side the back door...b/c we were NOT leaving with out autographs...since we waited there like 9 / 10 hrs...we waited and the drummer tom came out....and we gots autographs...then matt came out 5 min later then mike came out like 10/15 min later...but...were was kenny...hmm? we waited there and thyenwe see a whole group of girls...and ashley was like theres kenny...we ran...lol...and i got the autograph...lol..and a pic with him....lol...and a hugg...lol...after we all got hugs and what not...we left but...we came back...lol...and i got another hug...and we left...came back...to stare at him...then when all the girls cleared....i was werid and i asked him if i could touch his sexyyy long hair...whoa its hott...lol...he sed yes...even if he thought i was werid...he'll remember me...lol...then we were gonna leave so we asked for one more hug...i got the first one then ashely....b/c she wanted the last hugg...butt ashley tackled her...and kenny was like whoa....this girl deserves the last hugg...lol...the when we were leaving i licked the bus...lol...then they followed....hahha...oh yeah...sarah got the moderns pic...and ashley got the starting linns drum stick...lol...well then we left now im home...wish the show would go on again...tongiht was simply amazing..one of the best shows i've been to...the starting line like is sed were whoa!!! lol...plus the other band were kickass too=)

<33333333333333333333333333333333333333333333 whoa!!!!!!!

yay!

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 20:02:51 GMT

today acually went pretty good...i misss andrea:( hahahah lol...and mike isint madd at me nomore...thank god....lol.....eh anywatys i gtg...bye bye<33

heyy

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 15:15:31 GMT

Well, ummm im in typing class right now...and eh...i cant wait until schools over...i had the worst night yesterday....my new kitten had me up alll night...it was jumping on me and scratching me....omfg, she is annoying...i only got like 2 hrs of sleep not even...so i went ino schooll late b/c i told my mom and she sed i could go in late...so yeah as soon as i get home i am going on the computer then going to sleeeeepp....uggle...tommorrrow i had pom pratice...i HATE pom practice...i like kick but i fucking hate pom...ugh...ill write back later....ohh yeah i forgot i saw the new degrassssiii ugghhh...i HATE spinner right now :-D

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 01:15:41 GMT

yeeee!!!! ashley my love<3 helpped me make this journal prettier then beforwe..and right now sexyyy sarah is helping with my greatest journaly...i am so excited its gonna have a romeo and julit them....uhh...amaziiingggg....this vaca was funn....execpt mikes madd at me:( ...that sucksss major asss!!!!...lol...i slept at thems house twice in a row...it was quite fun...me sarah and ash made a "emo pit" that were gonna do during the starting line sunday...cant fucking wait...then we are gonna throw pillows at kennyy...hahahaha ...i love you guys<333 cant wait for the show<33333 ill update laterr...i gtg b/c my sisters a bitchhhh...hahahah bye bye...<33

U BETTER DO THIS

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 17:31:05 GMT

01. Who are you, what's our relationship:
02. How and where did we meet:
03. What's my middle name:
04. How long have you known me:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself:
06. When you first saw me what was your impression:
07. My age:
08. Birthday:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. Colour eyes:
11. Do i have any siblings:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things i love:
17. Do you think i'm good looking:
18. How would you describe me to someone:
19. Would you ever date me:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me:
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 01:09:55 GMT

eh, havent updated in a while....well halloween week ened was fucking stressful as helll...julies party was funn,..i left early cux i didnt feel good....:( then ashleys party i came late it was awesome...alot of people were there like, kevin, thomas, mike, matt, nikki,ashley of course, andrea, kait,jamie,sarah and alot of ppl...but those are most important people...i think thats all of them...then halloween came, we all went trick or treating...then it got borring so me, andrea, and kait went back to her house and played video games and went online and shit...then we met up with fangman, matt, jordan, and julie...it was fun untill jordan made me cry...:'( ....then we met up with other people...and then we went to wendys and sat there and talked in code language...hahahahahah lol...panda, seal, kangaroo, zebra, monkey<33333, chicken...hahahaha...lol...funny...then they all left and jordan was left...then he left...and it was only me, kait, julie and andrea...then these people came into wendeys...and you all knowing me i thought they were interesting and they looked really coool...i sed hi and tried to communicate with them,they at first gave me evil looks *shutters* then we moved next to them and they acually talked to us...ones name was anthony:) the other was bruce:) they thought i was to frirendly...maybe i am but w/e...i deff. annoyed them :( but we got huggs lol..yayyy...lol...then i forced anthony to give me his s/n yayyy...ive been tlaking to him...he seems really nice and cool...*hugs* lol...hes my new friend...:) ugh...

I DELETED BY ACCIDENT THIS ITS SUPPOSED TO GO BEFORE THE LAST ENTRY

Well yesterday...was eh...i hung out with megan, frank (nick f) and arianna then met up with tara...and we went to wendeys cuz thomas told us to...and he left with ash, nikki, and sarah...and left us there...but w/e that pissed me off...but i am over it...then we walked around...and then went back to wendys ...we saw freckle face...hahahah...lol..then we left and chilled out and danced lol...then frank and megan left and me and arianna talked alot...*gulp* i acually worked up the nerve to tell the person i like i liked him...i dont know how it went...im comfused...i REALLy like him..i never stopped liking him...ugh :'( i know everything is hopelesss i made a fool out of myself...and i shouldnt have sed anything...i could have kept it bottled up and i would have been sad, but at least i wouldnt be embarrassed...but w/e...
p.s. I MADE KICKLINE....hooray...lol... :) :) :)

Anyways...today was boring....idk...

i love you </3 You would kill for this...Just a little bit... We were all in love and we all got hurt...

yeah

Thu, 04 Nov 2004 01:05:58 GMT

...yeah...well...life is not so good right now....i really like kevin...idk...i never stopped liking him....yeah its pathetic..i really like him...well anyways...today was eh....idk...but tommorrow i have kickline...:) kinda excited i think it should be funn...to bad tara isint in kickline...:( *pout* well ill write back later...bye bye...

i love you</3

... You would kill for this..just a little bit...

...We were all in love...and we all got hurt...

..Im cracked from my head down to my spine ready to self-destruct at any time..

Life.Sucks.When.Your.Alone.

uggle

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 14:17:20 GMT

uggleee....i lost my cell phone yesterday..wow this sucks..my mom might not get me a new one...i hope she does...or ill go crazy...well last night was good and bad...well me and megan after watching pet semetary(good movie) went to walk up to target b/c idk why? lol...then we walked back toward her house...up taras block...we called tara and i told her to look out side b/c there was something on her lawn....she looked out the door and it was meee and megann...lol..( tara wasent in school b/c she is a fucking dumbass and she made scrambled eggs with the shells in it...god shes stupid) well then thomas came out and we hung with him for a bit and he sed kevin was coming b/c they were going to hang out with there friends from a diffrent school...but then when kevin came they decided to stay with us =))) lol..it was fun i was rapeing thomas, haha and i stole his keys...lol..then we left and i had to go home.... thats when i realized i lost my cell phone..so i searched for it everywhere...at taras, down the block, megans....everywhere i could think of...no luck...all my memory is in there....:'( wow i am rele stupid first i lost my bag now my cell phone...we cancelled my plan....*crys* my mom might get me a new one...but idk...UGHHH tara doesnt wanna try out for kickline alone...so guess who she picks to go with her...me....i rele dont wanna i am soo gonna make a fool out of my self on purpose...or ill "break" my leg...idk....i gtg...bye bye xoxox...~emily~

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 16:45:53 GMT

wow.....i hate my family...they are all assholes.....god i wanna just runaway.....andrea sed that when she moves to gorgia...oir however you spell it...me and megan can run away to there....god that would be awesome...i hate my mom.....

Sun, 24 Oct 2004 00:07:33 GMT

wow...i really LOVE jesse lacey...i am marrying him...lol...he is one on the most talented song writers...god i love him...brandnews music...is wow....

Wow

Wed, 20 Oct 2004 21:45:09 GMT

long time no write...lol...welll hmmmm...lalalal...this week has been fucking hell...i was supposed to have french dropped on monday...but noooo my fucking school sucks and it took until today for them to switch 1 class...and they have been worjking on this since 2 weeks ago....2 weeks for 1 class...hmmmm this shows the mentality of my school....they are retards that call themselves guidence couslers...well off that topic....ugh...i hate being alone... whyyyyyy....i need a b/f iff only one of the guys i like acually like me back....ugggle....grf...wow i used alot of "..." in this one entry....tara wants me to join kickline with her, im gonna give it a shot...hahaha dan sed hes gonna make fun of me oh well...at least im doing somthing...yesterday night was REALLY bad...i got into a HUGE fight with my mom and my sisters...it was wow...i was crying in a corner (emo me) and then i got up and punched my sister....wow she pissed me off...lol...i got in trouble but when she hit me my mother sed nothing to her....eh...but i guess its normal sister fights....ugh...welll on the broght side i beat tony hawks underground 2 another time...i feelll special...lol... w/e....oh yeah in case you didnt know me and jeff broked up...i dont care anymore i suppose... i gtg...bye bye<3

i love you</3

heyy!

Sun, 22 Aug 2004 02:04:55 GMT

heyy!it's bobby writing for em!

lalalala

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 05:23:26 GMT

So cut my wrists and black my eyes...

Today was pretty interesting... i hung out with megan, emmie, andrea, and kait... we met up with a bunch of people like matt w. and his friends... we left them after like 2 hours later i think? b/c it was lame...lol...So emmie had to go home so here mom came she gave us all a ride...she took kait and andrea home...she took me and megan to gallow...b/c we HAD to find arianna...No luck, so since andrea live like right around the block we met back up with her...lol...And me, megan, andrea, and ashley walked to 7-11 to get shit...We saw kerry there...I talked with her for a bit...then i went into 7-11 andrea was giving the cashier a problem...it was funny...then me and ashley were talking about like concert and mosh pit storys...it was hilariois...lol...i told her how i kicked the shit out of people at warped tour....hahahaha...lol...then me and megan went home at like 11:30 b/c our moms were pissy...lol...

So i can fall asleep tonight or die...

So yeah i miss julie so much<333333 BfFfE ...lol...She rocks my socks too...

I miss julie...and jeff...and i am acually happy

oh yeah... !!!!JESSE LACEY IS MINE!!!!

yeah

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 19:51:48 GMT

latley i have been hanging out with like everyone...i really like it...Dont get me wrong i LOVE hanging with my julie<33333 but i really did miss megan and bobby and im glad i am getting to spend time with them...I met this kid pat from megan and bobby...hes cool...lol..and hes like really hott, but anyways life has been pretty good...im still with jeff...lol...and i am pretty much friends with everyone...which kicks MAJOR ass!!!!! Everyone like loves me...lol...well at least people that know me personally love me...lol...Today ill prolly be with megan...b/c julies out and kerrys out...but i had plans to hang with megan sometime...so this is fucking awesome...well prolly meet up with other people also if i ever get ready...lol...i gtg start showering and shit...ill update tonight...later...

!!!!THANK YOU SOOO MUCH SARAH FOR HELPING ME WITH MY LAYOUT!!!!

yeah

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 04:05:01 GMT

well i am going out with jeff...i like him...but sometimes i get so confused with him...idk?!? hes sooo funny...lol... but im meeting new people and im caught up in everything it makes me think....*thinks*...idk...i am a fucked up emo child...i should shoot myself......yeah...ill update later....bye bye </3 i love you<3333

ohio is for lovers

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 03:43:56 GMT

OHIO IS FOR LOVERS: Hawthorne heights !!!!!!

Hey there, I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all Where you are and how you feel with these lights off as these wheels keep rolling on and on Slow things down or speed them up not enough or way too much how are you when I'm gone And I can't make it on my own because my heart is in Ohio so cut my wrists and black my eyes so I can fall asleep tonight or die because you kill me You know you do you kill me well you like it too and I can tell you'll never stop until my final breath is gone Spare me just three last words I love you is all she heard I'll wait for you but I can't wait forever CHORUS REPEAT You kill me well

lala

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 20:53:24 GMT

this is my first entry...yeah...brandnew and taking back sunday rocks my emo socks!!!! lol